End of a Dream

I am making some changes to my life and while some are very hard I believe they are the only course I have.

I am giving up on trying to move to America. Yes it has been a life long dream but here is the simple truth…. I have tried many different avenues over the years and today I am no closer to achieving my dream than I was 11 years ago. I could keep trying but I now believe it would be a waste of time as it clearly is not meant to happen and both parties in DC & media are becoming more and more supportive of Amnesty.

There are many reasons for this but one of the main ones is I am sick of being a selfish man. I am sick of always looking for ways and opportunities that I can get to live my dream. I am sick of hoping my work would lead to one day lead me to achieve a dream. I want and need to become a better person.

I am going to continue writing and doing podcasts where possible and I will never stop trying to spread the message of love, faith, hope, charity and the principles America was founded on. I will do everything I can to help but not because it will help me achieve a dream… but because it is the right thing to do….

God Bless each of you, thank you for your support and God Bless America.



9 thoughts on “End of a Dream

  1. Might I suggest not giving up the dream but reframing it. I wanted to be free of PTSD. I finally accept I never will, but I am learning to manage it so it has considerably less control over my life. I’m nowhere near where I wanted to be at this age, but I’m a whole lot further than I would have been if I’d given up. I think your story is worth sharing. You’ve endeavored to do everything right, and while you wait patiently, people breaking the law are handed what you’ve worked for and been denied. I have no idea what is involved with legally migrating. You have a story to share, the truth. Keep sharing it.

    • Thanks for your message Judy and your service. I am just giving up on this dream because I am no where closer after 11 years and also I want to become a better person. However I am going to continue writing, podcasting, sharing the truth and any other avenues that become available….

      I would love to hear more about your battle with PTSD. Are you okay now? Is there anyway I can help. I cannot imagine what pain it must bring. I am here if you ever need a stranger to talk to. God Bless you

      • I thank you for the kind offer. Mine is not Combat PTSD but Complex PTSD, a result of severe and long-term abuse. I don’t mind talking about it because there have been enough people who’ve thanked me for sharing; they no longer felt alone. I’ve learned a lot from the study of Combat PTSD; more study has been done for that condition. For Complex PTSD, there is no going back to normal because there was never a normal to begin with. I’ve had some wonderful counselors and others who’ve shared their journey, teaching me how to manage, with a lot of trial and error. I look forward to hearing more about your new adventure, wherever it leads.

        • OMG Judy I am so sorry to hear that. Please excuse my ignorance on thinking there was only combat related PTSD.

          Life can be a really sad experience when you see how we treat others. I am so happy you have support and wonderful counselors to support you. I hope you life is back to “normal” (whatever that is) and pray you will have a blessed future. Let me know if I can help in anyway.

          I don’t know what my future holds. I hope a full time job soon (economy really sucks in Ireland) and I just want to find a way to serve people and my God. God Bless you and stay strong. JD

          • PTSD, outside of Combat PTSD, is rarely discussed. Complex isn’t something most people want to look at, like not wanting to discuss human trafficking. The difficulty is that with Combat PTSD the psychologists want to believe there’s a single cure. Complex PTSD is as varied as their are people who deal with it and a plethora of things that work for one but not for another.

            The good thing is that there are a lot of amazing wonderful people in the world. Again, I appreciate your offer to help. Acceptance goes a long way.

            I will keep you in my prayers that you will be strengthened and inspired in your quest. God bless. ~ Judy

  2. As a Constitutional conservative Christian I can personally assure you that selfishness isn’t part of my life as a missionary in Peru. Most like me don’t oppose the immigration crisis out of selfishness, but because it was artificially orchestrated by the administration and the people who I know who follow the legal principles are delayed in gaining citizenship after passing all hurdles in excellence while the artificial crisis is promoted. This is far bigger than it appears to you. Come live in Latin America and contribute directly to their lives and your perspective will be clearer and your guilt relieved

    • Thanks for your comment James. I oppose Illegal Immigration for many many reasons not just because it affects me personally. I am going to do my best and serve my God and hopefully that will take away my sins, however I do not know where that will take me. God Bless you

  3. John
    I feel your pain. Perhaps you should just come in south of our border where everyone else is coming in unchecked. Lol.
    I know that is not really funny but pathetic what is happening on our southern borders. We now have investigations going on in all 50 states due to ISIS now within our borders. It’s criminal how our own President has sold the citizens out at the altar of politics and keeping the Dems in power. Haven’t even touched on the rampant voter fraud that will be carried out to achieve that goal. The most depressing thing John is a populace willing to put a man like that in power not once but twice. That is what is truly frightening. My bet John is you will be in a better position next year to become a US citizen when and IF we get Cruz or Trump :/ as President. Until then hang in because we NEED a man like you over here upholding our Constitution and FREEDOM !

    • Yes the border is a sad state of affairs but I still have much hope for your nation. I have zero confidence in your politics, but I have plenty of hope in your people. I will be doing everything I can to share stories to inspire your people and hoping they wake up more and act. God Bless you. JD

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